Well, my last post was pretty much a Debbie Downer...sorry about that. It had been a bad few days. But I am better now!! Not to say that ole Debbie won't return sometime!
Last weekend I had an absolutely amazing time with my children! WOW!! We spent the weekend in Indy for Cole's birthday Pacers game. It has been a tradition for quite a few years now to go see a Pacers game and spend the night downtown for his birthday. Chelsie got him tickets to see the Bulls and I hooked us up with a hotel room. We got there Saturday morning and did some shopping at Circle Centre Mall. After some lounging in the hotel room, we went to dinner at Weber Grill with Chelsie's b/f, Michael. The food and company were great, the service was terrible. It was really disappointing but didn't ruin our evening. After dinner we went to Conseco for the game. We had awesome seats and the Pacers WON! Sunday we got up and did a little more shopping in Greenwood and then ate lunch at Chili's. We left around 3 pm. The drive home was a little longer than usual...about 45 minutes longer, to be exact. On 465, at the SR 37 exit, the traffic was stopped. Didn't find out for 3 miles and 30 minutes later that it was because they were taking all the traffic from 4 lanes to 1!!! Oh my gosh. It was crazy. All-in-all, the weekend was just what I needed. My attitude was starting to STINK (not starting to, it was there) and now I feel better!! My wonderful children helped to put some things in perspective for me. We got to talking about why I am still single after all these years...here are their words of wisdom..."Mom, you have your shit together and you are intimidating to most men." Alrighty then. Thanks, guys. :-) Am I intimidating? I don't mean to be. I am looking for some honest input, please!
I am going to be quiet now and hope for some respsonses to the question..."Is Laura Mann intimidating? Why is she still single?"
Thanks, friends!!
Wednesday, March 3, 2010
Wednesday, February 3, 2010
One of THOSE days....
Well...I am not sure what my problem is but I am having one of THOSE days. Explanation...I am overwhelmingly emotional...on the verge of tears...for absolutely no reason. No, it isn't my hormones. No, it isn't PMS...thank goodness I stopped having that over 2 years ago! Days like today don't happen very often, thank goodness. But when they do, I think too much. These are the days that I question why I am still alone after 10 years of being divorced. Why am I not good enough for someone? Where is my "someone special"? Am I that difficult to get along with? I really do want answers to these questions so feel free to send me comments or an email and give me your thoughts!
I was quite sure I had found "the one" but have recently been told by this person "I never really felt a connection with you". WOW! Really? Here is your Academy Award because you sure fooled me...and many others, as well. I guess I don't know what love looks like...maybe that is my problem. I have this image in my mind of how it is suppose to be and I can't seem to produce it in real life.
I want to make someone happy...I want them to worry about my happiness...I want to do things for someone and have them appreciate it...I want them to surprise me with little things...I want honesty...monogamy...laughter...I want someone to listen when I talk just like I listen when they talk. I guess maybe that is a pretty long list.
And as I write this all down...whining like a big baby...my brain starts yelling at me. "GET OVER YOURSELF, LAURA! You have a wonderful life...amazing children...great friends." And of course my brain is correct. I need to count my blessings and not worry about what I don't have.
Okay...complaining session over. Thanks for listening/reading.
I was quite sure I had found "the one" but have recently been told by this person "I never really felt a connection with you". WOW! Really? Here is your Academy Award because you sure fooled me...and many others, as well. I guess I don't know what love looks like...maybe that is my problem. I have this image in my mind of how it is suppose to be and I can't seem to produce it in real life.
I want to make someone happy...I want them to worry about my happiness...I want to do things for someone and have them appreciate it...I want them to surprise me with little things...I want honesty...monogamy...laughter...I want someone to listen when I talk just like I listen when they talk. I guess maybe that is a pretty long list.
And as I write this all down...whining like a big baby...my brain starts yelling at me. "GET OVER YOURSELF, LAURA! You have a wonderful life...amazing children...great friends." And of course my brain is correct. I need to count my blessings and not worry about what I don't have.
Okay...complaining session over. Thanks for listening/reading.
Sunday, January 24, 2010
Let's see what I can ramble about tonight...
It is Sunday night...again. It was another busy weekend around here. I love all the activity but sometimes I would love to just stay in bed all weekend! Friday after work I met Chelsie at Oliver Ford. She traded our current Escape in for one with about 100,000 less miles. This will be her first "bank financed" vehicle. She was very excited. After the car purchase, we went to THE ROCK for the basketball game. WOW! What a game. The JV team only won by one point...great game. The varsity game was probably the roughest, least-fouls-called game I have ever seen. I was sure that there was going to be bloodshed at some point. The Pilgrims ended up winning by double digits. Saturday morning was an early start. We, my kids and my folks, went to South Bend to watch my cousin bowl in a collegiate tournament. If you ever get the opportunity to go to one of these, do it! It was so cool! There were teams from all over the US there...Florida, Texas, North Dakota, Kansas, Kentucky, Illinois, Ohio. 64 teams participated. I was amazed. We got to watch 3 different kids score perfect games. Very exciting for them! Saturday evening I had the opportunity to speak to the Young Democrats of Marshall County at Opie's. It was great to be able to pass on information about the Heminger House to another group of people. They were very generous with their donations of money and items for the Shelter. I enjoyed some of the looks I got...I was asked a couple of times if I was lost. They need to remember, domestic violence is bi-partisan. Sunday morning was spent getting Chelsie on the road back to Indianapolis. She did a great job timing the football game traffic. I had a great lunch with my mom and then picked Cole and Joey up and we went back to the Chippewa to watch more of the bowling tournament. Now...after all that...here is what I came to realize this weekend...
1. The weekends go WAY too fast.
2. Spending time with family is truly the best.
3. I still have the passion for HH and look forward to speaking to more groups in the future.
4. I think a bowling tournament would be an awesome fundraiser for the Heminger House.
5. And lastly...It sure would of been nice to have a "someone special" with me this weekend.
Oh well....
1. The weekends go WAY too fast.
2. Spending time with family is truly the best.
3. I still have the passion for HH and look forward to speaking to more groups in the future.
4. I think a bowling tournament would be an awesome fundraiser for the Heminger House.
5. And lastly...It sure would of been nice to have a "someone special" with me this weekend.
Oh well....
Friday, January 22, 2010
Wow...I am officially a "blogger"!
Well...here I am...embarking on a new adventure. I love adventures. Trying new things. Meeting new people. Seeing new things. I find them all very alluring. Let's see what I think of this new world of blogging!
What does one write in their first blog ever? Do they talk about themselves? What makes them tick? Who they REALLY are, not just who the outside world THINKS they are? Wow...that is a blog in and of itself for me. Do I talk about my children? My job? My quirks? My pet peeves? Gee...so many topics. I guess I should just pick one and go with it...how about "Who is Laura Mann"
The basics...I am a 44 year old, divorced mother of two AMAZING children. I am an only child...but not the stereotypical kind, really. I didn't get everything I wanted...I have always had at least one job. My parents have been married for almost 45 years...with an 18 month break at about the 30 year mark. I was married to my high school sweetheart for 13 years. We are much better friends now. Helping people that feel hopeless is my passion. I love to try and fix other people's problems. I am not so great at fixing my own. I have a great job and a great boss. I have a goal of returning to college...but no timeline for that goal. Thinking about it actually scares the crap out of me. I try to be honest all the time...sometimes when I should probably keep my thoughts to myself. I hate injustice. My jobs have included EMT, 911 dispatcher/jail matron, victim assistance director, major event planner/fundraiser, and now Mayor's Assistant. Up until this job, it seems I have been an adrenaline junkie. Do I miss those other crazy jobs? Some days. But not most days. Now my adrenaline rush comes from my children...their amazing accomplishments...watching them grow and mature into productive young adults. I really don't think there is any bigger rush than that.
Let's see....what else. I don't smoke and hate the smell of cigarette smoke. I very, very rarely drink. Probably due to watching what alcohol can do to a family. I love reality-type TV. I don't drink coffee...but love the aroma of it. If I could find a way to live on Diet Pepsi and Chips & Dip, I would be a happy camper.
Okay...I am stuck for now. I have come up with some ideas for my next entries though....my kids, my parents, why I am still single (I will be looking for input from everyone on this one), and what am I gonna be when I grow up.
Thanks for reading my rambling.
What does one write in their first blog ever? Do they talk about themselves? What makes them tick? Who they REALLY are, not just who the outside world THINKS they are? Wow...that is a blog in and of itself for me. Do I talk about my children? My job? My quirks? My pet peeves? Gee...so many topics. I guess I should just pick one and go with it...how about "Who is Laura Mann"
The basics...I am a 44 year old, divorced mother of two AMAZING children. I am an only child...but not the stereotypical kind, really. I didn't get everything I wanted...I have always had at least one job. My parents have been married for almost 45 years...with an 18 month break at about the 30 year mark. I was married to my high school sweetheart for 13 years. We are much better friends now. Helping people that feel hopeless is my passion. I love to try and fix other people's problems. I am not so great at fixing my own. I have a great job and a great boss. I have a goal of returning to college...but no timeline for that goal. Thinking about it actually scares the crap out of me. I try to be honest all the time...sometimes when I should probably keep my thoughts to myself. I hate injustice. My jobs have included EMT, 911 dispatcher/jail matron, victim assistance director, major event planner/fundraiser, and now Mayor's Assistant. Up until this job, it seems I have been an adrenaline junkie. Do I miss those other crazy jobs? Some days. But not most days. Now my adrenaline rush comes from my children...their amazing accomplishments...watching them grow and mature into productive young adults. I really don't think there is any bigger rush than that.
Let's see....what else. I don't smoke and hate the smell of cigarette smoke. I very, very rarely drink. Probably due to watching what alcohol can do to a family. I love reality-type TV. I don't drink coffee...but love the aroma of it. If I could find a way to live on Diet Pepsi and Chips & Dip, I would be a happy camper.
Okay...I am stuck for now. I have come up with some ideas for my next entries though....my kids, my parents, why I am still single (I will be looking for input from everyone on this one), and what am I gonna be when I grow up.
Thanks for reading my rambling.
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